花掉每一分錢我們所擁有的,他們說回憶走過去,那我們應該燒毀它。

一場午后大雨打斷了零碎的逛街時光,
看著散落一地的包裝紙裡頭塞滿了誰跟誰的舊照片。
那個閣樓上的安靜儲藏室有灰塵被陽光灑過的蹤跡,
那一本本厚重的相本裡頭究竟塞滿了關於我們的哪些事,
當然也有偶爾出現在我們生命中的某些人,或是仍然在我們身邊的。
大雨正傾盆所以我們才會在夏日感受到涼爽,
電話離開了電池無言的躺在床邊的一角,床頭櫃上擺著昨夜沒讀完的童話故事,
翻開相本的第一頁第二頁第三頁,讓相片灑落整間屋子的角落,
浴室裡的我正和一群好朋友廝混,除了大麻當然有啤酒,而我們狂歡。
我有時候都想不透我們這些好友的腦袋裝的是什麼,但我們開心的在一起。
客廳裡的我正親吻一個女孩,她的名字叫做嘉,那是我的初吻看起來有點笨拙,
她現在可能已經是幾個孩子的媽,而我卻慶幸能跟她相戀過。
在廚房前面是一張我站在棒球場觀眾席的照片,那年我有很多夢想,
棒球選手、籃球選手、太空人、歌手、演員。還有成為超人。
但是現在的我是什麼?什麼也不是。
在我的房間裡面是每一次出遊的照片,我珍惜我的家人,即使有時候會發生爭執,
但是沒有人會因此而受傷,我們都懂得如何克制情緒合諧相處。
看看這張在哪裡的風景照你就可以明白。家庭對一個人有多重要。
我習慣置身於回憶之中,什麼時候開始我們怨恨起現實,
在這裡卻沒有辦法看到前方,那一定是因為我們不斷回頭的緣故。
在相片裡的人都到哪裡去了?我不斷翻找著應該出現在這間房間的東西,
但是卻沒有辦法找到應該存在於那裡的一九八零。
我現在習慣一個人喝啤酒,海尼根只要四天就可以喝掉十二瓶。
沒有朋友因為每個人都忙著自己的事,利益優先。
我收起浴室的照片,去思考在遠方的老朋友,有沒有和我一樣感覺到無力。
因為我不善交際女人不會看上你的口才更別說臉蛋,
這年頭要把錢好好的存起才會認為自己真的擁有存在感。
那個女人、這個女人和這些女人,她們要的到底是什麼?我已經開始分不清。
我去想之前的美好初戀,然後淚滴在早該泛黃的親吻照片中。
當時間一旦過了一些,家人就會漸漸的離你遠去,我們適合獨立。
但是卻忽略了人是群居動物,只是不管多麼想要生活一起,也是會有先走的一方。
我將照片收拾乾淨,然後躺在床上撕裂一頁頁的童話故事,直到大野狼出現的那一段。
每次我看這張照片,都會使我開心;想這張照片,如何使我們的雙眼濕潤。
還記得這個老舊的拱廊街道嗎?警察很討厭看到我們一起。
那個女孩的笑容很甜總是說些不著邊際的話。
我們曾經一起聽收音機,為的只是搶先聽到邦喬飛的新歌。
我們唱每一首我們熟悉的歌,我們說有天我們會知道那是怎樣的感覺。
憤怒、無奈、傷心、難過,還是只是就如此而已。
我想讓任何人進入我的回億,那只能憑藉著一張張的照片和快門。
我再次將照片灑滿我的房間,每一個回憶尋找那個不存在的後門。
我房間的地板都是照片,回憶是很難說出口,但是時間到了必須說。
「再見,再見。」
時間不會讓你有時間去適應太多事,
每一個回憶遲早會走出那個不存在的後門。

我找到了一張我總是找不到的朋友照片,而開心的破涕為笑。

(完)

Photograph /Nickelback

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin' out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record SAYS I broke in twice
I must've done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate?
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in oh oh oh
Oh god I am

Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I got the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye


Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we'd know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when oh oh oh
Oh god I am

Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I got the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin' for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that time, I miss the faces
You can't erase, you can't replace it
I miss it now, I can't believe it
So hard to stay, too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of lookin' out the back door
I got the photo album spreaded on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walkin' out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was lookin 'for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

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